to you know who
you are a cold heartless bitch and i hate you and i will hate you for the rest of my fucking life. you used me for your own personal gains and then tossed me aside when you didn’t need me anymore, leaving me with just a broken heart and depression that yes, YOU caused. i lied to you! but i am trying to get closure, trying to get these feelings out of my mind so i can heal.
and so i will tell you that you are a horrible person and i deeply regret ever meeting you, and i wish you would just get out of my mind forever. but i cant, and you know why? because you built it fucking into me, with all the shit you put me through. you don’t even know half of it- don’t know what all you even did, and you never will. because you just don’t care, and you never did, not for a second. and you never loved me.
you did want me, though. as someone to take out all your frustrations on. and you may even fucking dare to say that i did the same thing? but i was fucking normal, and all my frustrations were caused by you.
i hate you more than anyone else in my life right now. you tossed me out, called me a bitch and told me to never talk to you- and why? because i didn’t want to talk to you at three in the morning, on a school night, when i had to be up in 4-5 hours, while you’re at the airport with your ex whom i am deeply terrified of and who sends me into fucking panicking when i think about him. and i’m the bitch. i didn’t want to talk, i couldn’t talk, but no- i’m a bitch.
fuck you.
i am so fucking angry.
